dying terrifies me. but hey , at least i'll get to see you again right? i miss you badly .
mummy&sister think i'm a pain to society. well ok then.
you know ,sometimes i dont mean to be cold but sometimes the things they do really piss me off . i do love them but give me a break please. perhaps yall could piss me off one by one at different times each day instead of at the same time at one shot. i can only take so much. k ya perhaps nowadays im in a world of my own ,then leave me in the world of my own. there's alot on my mind . &im starting to miss you even more ): i dont really like expressing my feelings to them. if it's 'emo' feelings i only express them to my friends. but if it's happiness then yes , i spread the love. ha.
when i'm with my friends , i forget everything and just laugh & laugh. then i come home and reality hits and i remember that youre really not here anymore. ha sometimes i imagine i hear your voice and then i get frustrated. your things are still around and theyre not going anywhere. they do make me cry most of the time but clearing them out would make me cry harder. i wish you lived a bit longer at least then you couldve used the spray i bought for you. but it's okay (:
do they have computers up there? if yes .do visit and read this please.i love you.
im sorry for not showing it enough when you were here but i know you knew i loved you ,yes? if i didnt , i wouldnt have followed you to the market every weekend . ha.
this post is really emo.sorry . im feeling really saaaaaaad now. weird how two posts in one day can be fucking cheerful and the next fucking miserable. stupid tryna communicate with a soul through a blog but im sure heaven's pretty up-to-date & technology exists up there. jesus is cool .
