i try but guess im not trying hard enough right? yesterday ,asked mummy if i could go out with tash&aud today cos it's tash's birthday. k according to her ,i dont ask her stuff . i tell her . and it's wrong cos i rightfully should be asking. but i dont mean for it to come across as telling it's just the way i ask i guess? k whatever . anyway i asked/told her and out of the blue she said "Lisa ,your results are F."(yes ,she said F. not fuck) and i like ?! but i showed no expression on my face. then came the lecture bout bla bla bla dunno what. and she said "you have to put in some effort. ok i know youre putting in effort but smthsmthsmth" you jollywell KNOW tt im putting in effort ,seeing my books and papers sprawled all over the floor till she has to tiptoe and cross over if she wants to get something from my room . so yes anyway , naturally i felt like shit . cos i know im trying but she's like rubbing it in saying my results are F. like i dont know it for myself . and seriously , i am tryna do smth about it . after tt she was like "sorry for being crude" and i just like nodded. couldnt be bothered to say anything.
yeah k i know i keep talking about the new phone but im human and when a human being is excited about smth , obviously tt human being would keep talking about it right. sorry if youre sick of hearing about me wanting to buy my own phone with my own money , from now on ,i'll talk to myself k ? and then perhaps you can send me away to a mental hospital and not deal with my F.results anymore. ah ,now there's an idea yes ?
fuck accounts ; fuck my F.results ; and fuck geniuses.
&perhaps a happier post later at night if someone can be a darling and cheer me up and make me sound smart . kthanks
