i have to get used to tabs. anyway tonight , im gonna have a sleepless night cos its my turn to take over the babysitting. she's sleeping in my room which means i have to :
1)wake up in the middle of the night for her feed.
2)wake up in the middle of the night to change her diapers.
3)wake up in the middle of the night to rock her back to sleep
4)wake up in the middle of the night to check that she's not on the floor (she rolls like a mad woman)
but heck ,sounds like fun!

-painful ,i felt like curling up into a ball and disappearing
[shitssss! i shouldnt fucking waste time and just do things if i want to. such a fuckup.big fucking fuckup]
cheers to a sleepless night ahead full of a pretty baby's smell and shrill cries.