i'm miserable. kinda. i feel distant from certain people. and i dont know why. not everyone. just some people. and sometimes it annoys me so bad i get that feeling that's from your stomach and it just travels all the way up to your chest and sometimes to your eyes and makes them grow hot. and i had that so many times today. mainly today. i was so frustrated thinking bout all that plus my mum and my sister were just taking their own sweet time doing dont know what. and i wanted to do something just for awhile but i wasnt allowed and that just added on to everything. and then tomorrow there's fucking school and performance in the fucking morning which im not looking forward to because i shant say. and somehow nowadays ,social studies is pissing me off because of her technique which is damn bloody useless. i want to emigrate. im going to explode. i think im mental. or in cikgu's words "minahmentel". whatever. i want to puke. bye