i love stoning. it makes me think. lately, ive been thinking alot. i think of everything from the past, the present and the future. what couldve been, what should be, what could be. everything. sometimes my thoughts trigger happiness and smiles, nostalgia, butterflies and goosebumps all over. other times, it makes me feel crappy, a great sense of regret, irritation. sometimes my thoughts make me wish unpleasant things. maybe its because i can be selfish when it comes to certain things. my thoughts make me question where i am now ,what'll happen. make me question, am i truly happy with myself or am i just making myself think im happy for the sake of others. am i thinking for myself or am i unaware that im letting others think for me. and one question someone asked me keeps swimming in my head-"are you sure that's what YOU want?" i dont know, i used to be afraid to type these things out cos i'll hear the word "emo" or whatever. but i dont care anymore. ive kept too much to myself ,im filled to the brim. so there, my thoughts.

i miss you badly ,mama. i would give anything to see you again