well ,something happened today and i just want to say ,

Perhaps you should see where we're coming from. you wouldnt know how we feel cos i doubt you've ever been in this situation before. ya and maybe we should see where you're coming from too but it sucks that you don't go out to study with us and yet we hear you're out studying with other people. You say you want to try and see whether studying with whoever else is productive or not ,but really ,have you even tried finding out if studying with us is productive as well ? no. not once in this whole year. if you think there will be some distractions ,tell us. be honest. COMMUNICATE. stop doing things that give us the wrong idea ,creating a misunderstanding. you're still my friend so i'll give you the benefit of the doubt. you're not deliberately doing all this but sorry to say ,after awhile it feels deliberate.
You yourself know what kind of person Alicia is ,please ,we've been close since sec 3 ,you know her temper. we have done things differently by talking to you about it. you cant say i havent cos i have im sure of it. when alicia did what she did today ,it was a build up of things. you should know that.
Jan ,i have questions for you ,where the fuck have you been?
where were you when your best friend went to malaysia?
where were you when your good friend was celebrating her birthday? yeah ,studying. you couldve just dropped by a little while ,alicia would have appreciated that. jan ,youre not the only one taking your O's and yet ,everyone else was able to be there for her in one way or another. you had a whole lot of other days to study jan. i couldnt understand why you couldnt just come by to see alicia in the afternoon for a little while. you couldve brought your sister if you had to. EFFORT ,thats all we're asking for.
when you had to rebond your hair and you made alicia go up and down , what she did ,what was that called? EFFORT.
when we call to ask you out to study ,whats that called ? effort.
have you ever once asked us to study with you? or me at least? you always said you could concentrate with me and i always said the same about you and yet ,when i did call you to study where the hell were you? we've been your friends for three years jan ,does that mean anything to you at all? cos it sure does to us. i guess you dont see it that way ,you probably see us as being unreasonable ,not understanding ,mean and all that. but really jan ,i think up till now ,you really dont see our point at all.
when a certain someone was hurting you &hurting you and we wanted to do something about it you saw it as making it into a hassle and what not . NO jan ,again ,missing the point. whats the point you ask ? CARE AND CONCERN. you know its something friends naturally have for each other? this has nothing to do with hafi's clique and everything to do about you & us. today what you did ,again you didnt communicate so you brought alicia's ouburst on yourself. when i come to talk to you nicely you get angry with me and tell me that alicia is my best friend and i couldve stopped her from saying it out loud for the whole class to hear. jan ,like i said above and like what alicia and zara said just now if we do pull you aside like all the other million times ,was it PRODUCTIVE? (you like that word right?) i dont think so. so alicia tried something else to see if it was productive(something you should probably learn to do when it comes to us). see jan ,oblivious to the examples all around you. when alicia flashed you the middle finger in the canteen ,did it ever cross your mind to just come over explain why youre suddenly magically sitting there and not make us think otherwise? no ,instead you ate really fast and went up to complete your work. there's something called common sense. i guess your lack of common sense ticked us off. you've been a wonderful friend to me jan ,you still are. but if you want to give us the cold shoulder and if you think youre better off without us then so be it. maybe you blend in better with hafi's clique. but i suggest you just come clean and be honest with us. tell us everything and if we're missing something ,enlighten us. like i said above ,communication. works all the time. on my part ,im sorry about today ,the humiliation and everything. but you have to understand why she did what she did. there's more i want to say but its just not coming to me now. but i guess this is more or less it. still love you jan. study hard.