i thought this was it. it really felt like it. but i think now ive realised that we have both been treating each other like shit. not wanting to give in to each other. the talk just now, was the bestest one we have ever had after a major fight. we really got to the core of the problem and we made ourselves clear. i love you forever. i really think so.

L: fine. what if we take a break for like 1 to 2 months?
D: NO.
L: why not?
D: no.
L: why.
D: because i dont want to lose you to someone else!

that really hit me and made me realise. we make mistakes. im sorry for everything ive put you through and youre sorry for everything youve put me through.