well, hes gone to malaysia with his family. pretty much a good thing. i get peace of mind, i can think about things properly and going into fb wouldnt be so painful (Y). but this will only last three days then hello heartbreak, insecurities and exhaustion. it sucks cos it used to be "omggg im so bored and lonely and i miss him):" ah well. i guess whats really making things difficult is that im not willing to take that risk to trust people, not even David. i do not wanna go through what i went through in 08 and i dont know if its my instincts telling me something or if im just some unhealed psychopath. (there seems to be such a word-unhealed-..hmm). Well, all i can do is hope and pray that everything goes away. wow i rhyme in all my sorrow. nice.