i hate ups and downs. why cant there just be ups ups ups! so many insecurities which i try my hardest to ignore. being in a relationship is so exhausting. but it shouldnt be. he is supposed to fill u up with energy like..blowing a balloon? but i usually pop. i think the whole ''honeymoon period'' thing is total bullshit. i really dont know why i am blogging about this, im not even fighting with david. haizz. i hate it when my tattoo itches randomly. im thinking of making my blog public again. maybe i will.