we've been through way too much and lasted way too long despite everything to just throw everything away like it were trash. but somehow im so ready yet cant fathom the thought of not having you in my life at all. i dont want that. i just want you to realise. trust me ive realised my faults and flaws and you know that. i want you to grow up and open your eyes for there are far more important things in life and right now your priorities are really up your butthole and i cant take it anymore. it is so fucked up cuz i really see myself marrying you i really do but at the same time im thinking if you cant keep a simple promise and weigh the options of certain circumstances and make the right decisions for something that is literally hanging by a thread, how can i trust you with far more bigger things? i love you but you are ruining me slowly but surely when by right you are the one that is supposed to be piecing me back together when others break me. i love you but i hate you so much because u have the power to do that.