i sit here ,suffering from severe insomnia. a few moments ago ,i was playing solitaire on my boyfriend's phone because he switched with me:) sweetie pie. so there i sat ,resetting it over and over.(ive only won once in my life and i watched the cards fly all over my screen with great pride and awe). i almost had it though! but no i had to reset it again. so i gave up. so here i sit ,typing ,waiting. waiting for my eyes to grow heavy and my hair to dry. worrying about monday. dreading it yet anticipating it. contemplating ,wiping my nose ,observing my dog's breathing pattern and hating how my wisdom tooth is trying to burst through my gum ,causing me pain.

yes ,i am bored and very much awake.

to think that i'll be twenty in just 2 years. damn ,i miss kindergarten. i miss pure pink lungs ,i miss being skinny.
i'm half in love with elizabeth ,half in love with david. damn tough choice. fuck ,bored.